Wanting Connection and Conversation

I just read an essay from Chris J. Wilson on his micro.blog (a platform which sounds interesting but not interesting enough). I wanted to have a conversation about the essay entitled I Still Love Paper. You can imagine why given all the thinking I do about good tools (paper is a damn good tool), fountain pens, writing, and so on. I wanted to write back that I find myself thinking in a near-parallel with him. We part ways on the calendar — his is in the cloud, mine is on the page — but agree that paper is a delight. I wonder what he might make of my thinking about good tools. I bet we could get somewhere mostly because we don't agree about everything.

What I want from conversation and connection boils down to this Aaron Sorkin quote from his great show Sports Night:

“If you’re dumb, surround yourself with smart people. If you’re smart, surround yourself with smart people who disagree with you.”

Chris J. Wilson has no way to contact him on his micro.blog. I understand why, but what a pity to not be able to make that connection and have that conversation.

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Alan Jacobs in The Pleasures Of Reading In An Age Of Distraction adds this:

““I agree with every word you write” would be a gratifying thing to hear, I imagine — I wouldn’t know — but even more gratifying would be a reader who carries your idea a step further, who adds thoughts you never hat that enrich your understanding of your own project.”

Syracuse Women's Basketball

I've been asked why I like the SU Women's basketball games. A lot of it has to do with Dad, some of it is having two daughters, but mostly it's just that thye are so damn exciting to watch. Wait until the last seconds of overtime. It's worth it.

Dad would have loved this team.

Good Tools In Times Of Trouble

Part of my thinking about good tools is that something ought to work well and endure in times when so much is breaking down. Increasingly I demand my tools be designed to avoid obsolescence, free me from electronic connections, and help me do good work.

Last night we took my daughter's failing iPad back to the Apple store. A woman there reset the device, but I suspect we will be back in a month to exchange it. Most electronics are poorly made and we are patsies to believe that they are good tools.

Yet as I waited at the store I felt the desire for a tablet, a new phone, a fresh laptop to make me feel better. I wondered how I had gone so long without new electronics. These half-baked thoughts rose in the overheated oven of my brain. Fortunately, the reset done, we left before I could make any mistakes.

Later, in bed, these ideas forming, I wrote the bones of this with a felt-tip pen on post-its. I thought about my phone plugged in downstairs. Had it have been next to me I could have dictated the note without even sitting up. The ease! The convenience! But my post-it was strictly between me and myself. It was done in solitude without mediation. I was unplugged from the networks — actually, I was listening to Charlie Haden and Pat Metheny on my Google Home, but the writing was at least unplugged — and connected with myself and my ideas.

Compare pen and paper to phone in terms of Wendell Berry's nine rules for new tools. Pen and paper are (1) cheaper than the phone, (2) smaller in scale, (3) do the work better, (4) use less energy (though I dislike the pen being disposable), (5) are powered by me, (6) do not require repair, (7) can be purchased near my home, and (9) do not disrupt my thinking or connections to the world. The pen and paper fail only in that (8) they are not made locally.

Implicit in Berry's rules is the simplicity of good tools. Consider the tools a carpenter wears on her belt: hammer, tape measure, pencil, razor knife, and square. She goes to the truck for more complex tools (sawzall, air nailer, theodolite, and screw gun), but the essentials she keeps at hand. Those tools are likely old because they and endure. In any craft the essential tools are simple and enduring: a chef's knife, an artist's palette, a writer's pen, a tailor's needle and thread, a doctor's stethoscope, and a coach's stop watch.

There are always specialized instruments but these give way to the basics of the trade or art. Jazz guitarist Pat Metheny is a master of the guitar synthesizer but he returns to six strings and exquisitely crafted wood, a purer form that mesmerizes.

I don't need an iPad, new laptop, or "upgraded" phone. I need the constant and regular return to pen and paper, the unmediated experience of creation done with good and necessary tools that open me to my best work and lead me to more interesting places than stores which can't sell anything to fix what really ails me.

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The Wendell Berry essay from which I borrowed the rules for good tools can be found here.

What The Run Was Like

Here is what it is like to run sometimes.

Frustrated with life, I tore off my t-shirt and threw it against the wall hoping it would shatter, disappointed that it merely fell. I pulled down my pajamas and boxers, found running shorts and a wool long-sleeve shirt, and pulled them on still angry. I wrapped my ID bracelet around my wrist and running sandal straps around my feet, capped my head and gloved my hands, snapped the reflective vest, and went out the garage, down the driveway, and onto the road.

I found that I was running.

I haven't run in months aside from the occasional desperate attempt. My wife had suggested that a run might heal me but I wanted to punish myself, hurt myself maybe.

I ran uphill to get myself gasping in the 28 degree air and wind, hoping maybe to blow the frustrations out of my system.

Running wasn't frustrating. Even after a long lay-off I can run slow but steady and keep going. I was only out for two and a half miles or so, something just to shake off my dark feelings and get out of my head, but I was thinking these thoughts as I ran uphill rather than letting my mind go blank. I pushed harder.

28 degrees seems too cold for shorts and sandals but the cold was supposed wipe me clean. At the top of that hill, my breath burning, it still wasn't working. I ran down a gentle grade then uphill next to the house with all the solar panels which reminded me of my frustrations. I looked away and tried to run faster.

Just before the school track I came upon a woman walking her dog. "Good morning!" I said, surprised at how happy I sounded. Why, I wondered, was I so generous in greeting strangers yet so inclined to tell myself to go fuck off? More thoughts. I couldn't run from them.

Past the high school fields I turned down the big hill to the road along the brook. The wind found me there, blowing hard against me, and I was reminded of the cold on my legs, through my shirt, against my eyes now tearing. I straightened my back and lifted my feet. Proper form, I thought. That's what I need. Again I tried pickin up the pace. I don't know my speed having left the GPS watch at home. I didn't need a coach so much as a therapist, though I neither came to me and I was left alone with my awful self.

The flat road home leaves me with a choice of turning two blocks before home or half a block past. I chose the latter out of habit, hoping it would help me be my running self, a person better in nearly every way than my sitting self. I pushed into a sprint to see what that might feel like, but my thoughts were still coming and I've no idea what anything felt like beyond my confusion.

At the corner I slowed and jogged up the incline toward the house. I turned onto our street and at the stop sign slowed to a walk as I have for almost two decades. At the garage I tapped the same old code into the keypad and watched the door open onto the same garage and the same home in which I've been living all this time. Nothing had changed.

Inside I shed my hat, gloves, sandals, and reflective vest. I forgot my ID bracelet until I was upstairs with my family there to remind me who I am. I ripped open the velcro on the bracelet and tossed down the steps where it disappeared into the darkness without a sound. I stared after it for a moment already making it into etaphor and wishing the run had left me blank and open to new ideas instead of still stuck on all the old ones.

That's what it's like to run sometimes. Maybe tomorrow the run will be different.